bleh.

i can tell something is wrong because i have every reason in the world to be happy.
but im not.

i mean i occasionally am. but im just stressed i think.


i really sometimes wish you realized how lucky you are.



"in life the only person you can really depend on is yourself"

and that's the truest thing i heard today. and it just has been ringing through my head. im glad you said it.

it's empowering. being on your own is empowering.

you on the other hand are delusional. i dont know whats happening, but you really aggravated me tonight. you dont pay attention to me. and i even tell you that, and nothing seems to change. literally all i think about is you and basically i give you my undivided attention.

ive really got to get a hold of all this. because i really just feel like im spinning out of control.

definitely.

i dont want to play any games. except monopoly.

but

hmm....

im really really frustrated which means that i am most likely going to be up late tonight.

like always. with a racing mind.